Wednesday, September 18, 2013

我的異想天空下,多了一個她

10多年前,在上下班時常帶著我的消噪音耳機,在嘈吵的地鐵內,聽著自己disc man 的歌,清噪音啟動後,週遭的人聲即時靜下來。

今天在公共交通公具上, 很安靜, 看到很多人帶著名貴耳機, 在聽著音樂,而我好像有一點角色對換.  既然那麼多人在聽歌,應該歌曲銷售是相對地好。可是.......

現實生活中, 唱片店快要消失, 合法音樂平台未見成效, 周遭的朋友家人, 全因為某些智能手機操作平台的所謂方便好用, 主要在於免費程式及音樂電影等容易複製. 每當我聽到這些, 只會默不作聲.  很多時候, 在朋友的電腦或某些裝置, 見到歌曲只是一些數字亂碼代號為其曲名, 我當作看不見.  更有一次, 一位朋友在要求將我的iTunes library 全部拷一份, 我很憤怒拒絕, 我也跟他疏遠。以後我再也不想對人說自己喜愛的歌。

也有一次, 我對另一位朋友說, 我在唱片店及iTunes找不到 Mr. Children 的 “十四歲的媽媽” 的主題曲及 “The Day after Tomorrow” 的電影原聲帶, 因為某些版權問題, 而並未能在某些地區售賣, 我的朋友說會在日本給我找, 但我拒絕, 原因在於我喜歡自己去找, 也有很多人不明白, 為何我不因為工作之便, 去拿取一些免費樣版, 我說我喜愛享受自己去找尋及自己去買的那份情懷, 換來是別人的說裝模作樣, 之後我也收回這些話.  

其實找不到, 得不到某些歌, 我就不要硬著要, 再者, 自己的人生哲理就是簡單地不要強求. 這點的不執著, 原來在當音樂巳沒有尊嚴地很容易垂手可得時, 竟然顯得我是頑固執著.   我也只好再一次收聲, 也不再說因由.  

這天, 我聽到一位母親苦苦訴說, 她寫給小朋友的一首兒歌, 竟然在綱上給別人變成多樣不同版本, 輕挑, 中傷, 淫穢什麼都有.  她女兒哭著對她說不要再寫歌了, 不要再聽兒歌了.  這位母親只好屈結她的無奈, 默不作聲, 能做什麼?  當眼看所有人巳對隨意下載音樂, 及在綱上將音樂任意踐踏, 也認定應該是給別人這樣吧.

看著她, 也看著自己, 原來我與她是活在這無形的生活壓抑底下.  然而, 她比我更壓抑 - 她的女兒..... 

這位母親沒有放棄, 每晚照顧好年邁的父親及幼女睡覺後,不管是深夜,追尋自己理想......   堅持自己的信念.

在我看到一個異想天空下,多了一個她。


4 comments:

Stella said...

This is kind of sad note.
I do understand your feeling.

No matter how your friend think or say, please go by your heart and do it any way whatever you feel right.

Yes now the original copyright songs are intruded by the so called 2nd creation, in a legitimate way. Sad for the music industry. Maybe this will open a new area for you to work on.
When this is frustration and stress there is also new opportunity.

Have a nice Mid-Autumn Festival and enjoy your long weekend.(Marco's mom just emailed me to inform this is a long weekend in HK. Also her Birthday today.)

in the sea said...

Thanks. It's not sad but just an unspeakable grievances. When people ask you to accept what they are doing, they wouldn't accept what I am doing. Besides, when something most people do and consider most people do so, they told me not be silly. Even someone thought I should get a better meal on my birthday, even after I told them I simply want something simple, soon they feel not so good. Truth isn't something not someone who wanna listen to. If those are just someone new, then I'm fine. However.... :) So there are times I'd sneak out to enjoy my happy solo meal.

in the sea said...

BTW, I'd like anything that my friends would ask for on any occasions, except for my birthday that I'd prefer something simple. So that would be just only one day out of the 365 days. :)

Stella said...

It sounds reasonable.
One out of 365 days is a humble request.